I woke up this chilly (-30 with windchill) morning groggy and restless because my toddler son still has yet to sleep throughout the night without crying for his parents and a warm cup of milk.
I had to get my tired self out of bed and proceed with the usual weekday morning hustle otherwise I would have starving kids and miss the morning school bus.
My daughter reminds me that she has to bring in some goodies as a contribution for a good-bye luncheon for their classmate who’s moving out of the country (Crap! I forgot she told me this last Friday and yesterday…) and this is all while chasing my son around to dress him up in layers before we head out. Of course he’s grumpy this morning and not wanting to go anywhere (if only you would sleep through the night, little man…). Okay, so he’s not a morning person like his mom.
My daughter is missing her only good pair of gloves on the coldest day of the year.
I haven’t even brushed my dang hair, let alone at least make myself look decent enough to face the world.
And most importantly, I haven’t had my coffee yet.
Before my vocal cords go up a few notches above EXHAUSTED… Pause.
So this morning may have not gotten off on the right foot, but it ended beautifully and peacefully.
Some days are just fantastic and I wish that I had more days like them. There are days that I want to completely erase from my memory because they were so bad.
There are moments I wish for things that I don’t have because my life would be so much better with them — like a maid, a nanny, a reliable babysitter, a bigger house, a house closer to my daughters school, my husband to not have to work so many hours and work so far from home, a better computer because mine is on its last legs, a rich relative that I’ve never met leave me the inheritance to their home in Europe somewhere…
I could go on but I’m beginning to sound completely narcissistic.
And that is the last thing that I am. But I’m human and I have my moments, my desires.
This year I started writing in a journal for the first time in a few years. It has helped spark my inner poet and also serves a reminder of all the things that I should be grateful for. I decided to make it my Gratitude Journal that I could look back on at the end of this year with a smile (possibly with some champagne) and contentment in all the beautiful memories, moments and things me and my family have been blessed with throughout the year that I may take for granted.
I decided that I would gradually learn to adopt the Gratitude Attitude this year.
Before you roll your eyes and think this is just another one of those early-January mawkish moments one usually gets, I think it’s fair to point out that this isn’t “just” a resolution. This is an essential goal to better inner health. And I think it also will help as the seed to an overall more productive and happier year ahead.
It’s really simple. Look at the negatives in your day and reverse it — turn it into something positive.
What if that one thing you’re angry about didn’t even exist?
Lack of sleep from toddler that doesn’t sleep through the night → Grateful FOR my son and his good health. How could I forget that only 2 years ago, I was undergoing week after week of infertility meds and needles, praying for him?
COLD weather → Grateful for a roof over my head with heating
No Nanny/Maid → Grateful that I have the ability to stay home and raise my children while still working at what I love and contributing to the financial demands in our family
My husbands hours and far workplace → Grateful that my husband has a good and secure job
The best, newest (and coolest) laptop/desktop → Grateful that I have one (which I’m currently typing on at the very moment)
I have become a little selfish.
I forgot about all the amazing things that I’ve been gifted with and spend more time worrying and trying to go aim for more, when I already have some of the best things in life.
As you noticed my blog has been quiet entering the new year. And for good reason.
I have been reflecting and writing in my journal but most importantly, I have been spending a lot of time with my family, my children.
I wanted to take some time out to grasp what direction I’d like to step towards — for my family, my blog, my career — and start clasping onto a Gratitude Attitude.
It’s been really wonderful and I encourage you to do the same.
It’s not to say that I won’t have many not-so-great moments throughout the year, I bet I’ll have tons, but I take heart in knowing that this year will be better as I work on exercising my soul.
And that is a fitness routine I can get around.
Speaking of which… about that treadmill.
(To be continued…).